I must really buck up. Getting a lady to not want to dance with you halfway thru a song cos i was just doin my flamboyant "swing here, swing there" is more than an insult. it's a wake up call. I do extra shit cos i don't remember what i learnt. I guess I let Lionel Araya's proclaimation of "Here's Mr SmmooOOOth !" get to my head. Hard to imagine that was a cool 6 years ago when Lionel Araya was teaching @ Jitterbugs. He's now start up his own studio with his fiancee(or did they get married already?) @ LaDanceConnection. I was in Poly 18 years old. 24years now, still dreaming that i'm good without any repertoire in my head and still single... sick feeling. Now that I properly taking up lessons again on Thurs @ JJSalsarengue, i'm going to cheong! going 2 go for more lessons till i'm broke! how can i postpone my fav activity for so long...
I admit ppl callin me gay cos i take up a "dance", poisoned my ego. Stupidity probably more than stained their perceptions of life(or should i say "What perception? an idiot has none of such a trait") The stench of hormones reeking thru the air is almost suffocating. There's so much manly egos fighting for women than any place i've seen. Of course nowadays in this modern context, the dance of sweet short passion ends as that and i don't tik most of these translates to luck the the bedroom. But being called gay is a horrible excuse to an inherently shy soul. I can't ask them girls to dance for nuts. it's lik a huge barrier. nowadays i'm more open i'll definitely wana dance with ppl i noe so i just have to noe more ppl thru lessons and thru my friends and cousin, Lynn.
But being too open by being honest and naive in my words @ times can be demeaning to my social life too.. Must stop this... Must learn to be wayang and a little superficial @ times. No "GREATER GOOD" shit when it comes to human relations. My heart does good things and curbs them can liao. Of course i'll still tick off ppl who do stupid inconsiderate things or are just being plain bastard/asshole.
ok! eenough sidetrackin!
i'm not the type who wallows in my misery nowadays.
i do something abt it. I don't slouch. I need to train to be fit, so I train till i'm almost halfdead with my lungs bursting at the seams and my hamstrings tattered and torn. I need to get best trainee in my courses, i come back, after doing my daily responsibilities lik cleanin the discus fish tanks and watchin my chinese dramas to improve my chinese, i go study an hour or so. didn't get best trainnee but at least i tried.
Why i do this?
Cos like what Adam Khoo said,
IF YOU'RE NOT SATISFIED WITH YOUR STATUS QUO, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!
to all ppl who needs inspiration or jus plain can't get off to doing something.
jus read tat line and feel angry... yes... do it... feel that anger! shout! scream! be so angry with yourself that you're procrastinating on something like maybe, losing weight, gettin your work done, dusting off the dust on your textbooks,
turn that anger into action!
it doesn't matter! GET OFF YOUR ARSE AND DO SOMETHING GODDAMIT!
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